伤透了

他不懂

他留给你是背影 
关于爱情只字不提 
害你哭红了眼睛 
他把谎言说的竟然那么动听 
他不止一次骗了你 
不值得你再为他伤心 
他不懂你的心假装冷静 
他不懂爱情把它当游戏 
他不懂表明相爱这件事 
除了对不起就只剩叹息 
他不懂你的心为何哭泣 
窒息到快要不能呼吸 
喔喔 
他不懂你的心 

不知道 不明瞭 不想要 為什麼 我的心
明明是想靠近 卻孤單到黎明。

从几时开始我的心痛了，却没有能够倾诉的人。
你知不知道其实被你伤的很深却假装坚强的人是我！

2014年的第一篇文章

Hi,你们好吗？
不知这里是否还会有人来逛吗？
今年23岁的我，没有在读书了。
也刚好在一月份的时候踏入社会做第一份的工作。
其实之前吊儿郎当了4个月吧？！
当时确实很无助不知未来是如何。。。
渺茫的感觉很沮丧·！
因为想要往自己喜欢的方向去可是知道这条路不是那么容易的。
大学毕业生满都是，谁会请一个没经验；
学历和工作上的需求又不吻合，
自己在想我要浪费多少时间啊？？？

结果奇迹发生，我会说是上帝聆听我的祷告吧。
一直以来有点小发白日梦想如果我能进到Astro多好啊？
之前就有send过 resume，可是都音讯全无。T.T
失望成自然，当然最后一次我完全没有期待过，
连所谓的平常心都没有。
结果某一天下午接到一通电话，
说:这里是Astro打来的，可以来面试吗？
我当时的反应“能够面试我都已经很开心了。”

过了几天.......

去面试，

然后..... 过了十多分钟后，

Interviewer：你几时可以上班？
我：几时都可以！
Interviewer：那么就下个星期开始来吧。

（当下的我，外表很镇定，内心却是乱蹦乱跳的说！）

万万没想过我有机会进入制作组的团队，
本来第一份工的打算是，有公司请我就好了，
拿了经验在来算。
现在第一份工就能做到自己想要的，
一来拿经验，二来离我的梦想又静了一步。


进来过后，却得知很多同事要走，也是压力的来源。
不过希望有更好的未来，
工作上要好好表现好好加油。
希望有一天我能够赚到一点点回报自己家人。
就算是一点点。

Worry + Stressful

Hi All, just suddenly feel want to post something here.
Well, i had graduated last month with First Class Honour!
First of all, i'm kind of very excited cause with first class can get exemption for PTPTN Loan.
Today, go settle and pass up all the related document to PTPTN Office.
I thought that everything will be very Smooth.
Who know the staff check the system and told me that follow the date i must be finish my course on the end of 2012. But how come end of 2012? Cause my intake is September 2010? Impossible that i finish my course within 2 years time rite?! Then, She said i also don't know but follow the date/ system.. BLa BLA bLA.  after all, the conversation was like Don't know, Don't Know!
If this is the way you answer to everyone, then please don't work there anymore.

"I just know that i'm a poor student, i study hard is want to get exemption for PTPTN. If the date set by PTPTN  like that , then should be no people can get exemption. Is this way government try to cheat us?! Degree course duration 3 years, and i also done my course early one semester. But you date set only for 2 years!

Sorry, i just really want to spoke out my voice here...

I Hope i can hear a good news from PTPTN! First of all i'm very excited and now i feel worry and sad.

Another thing i'm stress is searching a job.
Actually personally i love event management a lot, but what i study is Logistic Management,
to search a job that not related to my field is quite challenging and also will that employer take a risk to hire me? A newbie ? I need time! but there are always family give me a lot tension about don't waste my time in KL, it is waste money on the same time.

Aiks.............. I NEED TO SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT SHOUT!

A long lost friend just find me, i'm happy that he was already accept God as his Father Christ. At the same time when i worry, saw his post , anything worry anything we scare, just let God to help us to worry , settle. Believe in God is my only way now.. I believe God will brighten the eyes of the staff to approve my exemption. I really got no much money ody. T.T....

So happy can be chat with him like a very close friend as before again. Haha

我回来了

今天突然想起我有个blog很久没开，
今天就上来写写我的感想吧。
这个学期，只有两个科目可是，
却是我人生中最最最辛苦的一个学期。
因为毕业论文把我给搞垮了。
遇到不好的指导老师，我还真的任命了。
应该是上个学期要做的东西，我到今天为止都还没弄完。
原因老师之前都不上心，现在要我改那个改这个。
突然有加这个加那个。
不瞒你说多两个星期的今天就要搞定全部还有presentation
我的心只想Pass了就算，已经没那个心情了。

今天超开心的，终于等到香港寄来的信。
收到信的感觉很不一样。
很开心！！！
虽说网络很方便，可是收到信还比我收到Fb inbox开心10倍，
虽然等信真的需要很久时间。

惊喜连连。。。。。。。 就快能见到拍狼还有旻佑。颁奖典礼见 XD

One word- BAD

Previously think that today will be fine,
cause the whole day running smooth,
who know before 12a.m , it still the same day
FUCKING SMALL PARKING ANGKASA CONDO,
u go die !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AGAIN .. is AGAIN....
THIS MOMENT REALLY PISSED OFF !
Can give me some peace day ? can i ?
i really feel like only a week , why treat me so much of thing
do you think i can affort all of this ?
Alone? .DAMN IT

“衰”过就好了

我其实并没有想要写这星期内发生什么事。
因为坏事接二连三的多，
以前并没有写日记的习惯，
可是现在我又开始写咯。
发生特别的事情都会纪录起来，
而且在这儿未必能知道的东西都会写在那儿。
简单来说：
这星期不幸运的是让我喘不过气，
心里在流泪，可是眼睛却连哭都哭不出来。
上个星期六到现在距离才多少天？！
我把车弄花，忘记带钱包，吃霸王餐，
电话不见了，无缘无故中saman，
去还saman被人家点我走冤枉路，
走了好几公里， 路人说走人很远，搭的士去，
到了那边写1p.m-2p.m 休息。
看了一下手表，刚刚好1p.m。
结果没还到，脚又累，又浪费钱和时间。
重点我还要赶去KL trainning.
第一次觉得一个人衰起来，还蛮夸张的。
一度非常不开心。

Accept the truth

Something that i already know before go back to SABAH,
but once i didn't see, i expect it's no true yet.
Some how, I feel great to be escape to Sabah for 1 month time.
All of the thing at KL, i have forgotten mainly included somebody else.
And now i look at a photo, i know it's true.
It's was a TRUTH that i must accept indeed.
But well as i mention i have forgot everything during my holiday.
My mood doesn't feel so sad yet i really need to forget everything.
Prepare myself for the great future will be  more important.

Lastly, during the year end holiday,
I know many of you have in relationship,
there was a great news from you guys.
I fully hope that you have choose a right one and be the last one.
I doesn't feel lonely but i damn envy.. HAHAHAHA.
When is my turn??? did i too "choosen"????????